Misunderstood

Daijoubu datte ii kikasete
Tokui no egao ni kirikaeru
Nageyari datte iun ja nakute
Hirakinaotta tte iu kankaku
Furueru te wo kakushita no wa
Doujou ga samu sugiru kara
Chuutohanpa de misekake dake no
Nukumori nanka ja atatamara nai
Sore nara isso minai furi shite
Atokata mo naku kudakechiru made
Imasara kireigoto da nante
Kiku tsumori mo iu tsumori mo nai
Itami wa fueru ippou darou
Nara ba uketomete iku made sa
Kowai kurai sunda kuuki wa
Arashi ga kuru mae no shizukesa
Shinsetsu sou na ano hitobito wa
Hontou wa nani wo shiritai no darou
Yasashige na me no oku ni surudoi
Kouki to iu na no NAIFU kakushite
Kimi wa ittai nani ga hoshii no
Kimi wa ittai nani wo negau no
Kimi wa ittai doko wo mezasu no
Soshite soko he wa dare to mukau no
Kimi ga kimi de ikirareru no wa
Saisho de saigo kono ichido dake
Ookina chizu wo hirogeta ato wa
Kimi dake no michi wo egakeba ii

大丈夫だって言い聞かせて
得意の笑顔みきかえる
投げやりだって言うんじゃなくて
開き直ったって言う感覚
震える手を隠したのは
強情がさもすきるから
中途半端で見せ掛けだけの
温もりなんかじゃ温まらない
それならいいと見ない振りして
跡形もなく砕け散るまで
いまさらきれい言葉なんて
聞くつもりも言うつもりもない
痛みは増える一方だろう
ならば受け止めて行くまでさ
怖いくらい澄んだ空気は
嵐が来る前の静けさ
親切そうなあの人々は
本当は何を知りたいのだろう
優しげな目の奥に
鋭い好奇という名のナイフ隠して
君はいったい何がほしいの
君はいったい何を願うの
君はいったい何処を目指すの
そしてそこへは誰と向かうの
君が君で生きられるのは
最初で最後この一度だけ
大きな地図を広げたあとは
君だけの道を描けばいい

I said to myself "I'm OK"
And showed my usual smile
I didn't feel in desperation
But in a kind of defiance
I hid my trembling hand
Because their sympathy was so hollow
I don't get warmed
By the half-hearted and artificial warmth
I rather want them to shut their eyes
Until I break into pieces without a trace
I don't want to hear nor speak
The fine words any longer
The pain will be getting worse
So I just accept it
The air is awfully clear
The calm before a storm
What do those people really want to know
With seemingly kindness
Hiding a sharp knife of curiosity
Behind their gentle looking eyes?
What do you really want?
What do you really wish?
Where do you really aim for?
And with whom?
It's the first and the last time
For you to live just as yourself
You should draw your own way
After spreading a big map
-(Miss)understood, Ayumi Hamasaki

Yes, I know the mane is bolder and chunky, it's wet, what do you expect??? Other then that, I really don't feel like explaining anything. Besides, I worked 3 days on it, I'm lazy now.
Done with GIMP 2.8 and a mouse

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